Recently, I took a brief vacation from social media. As soon as I logged back on, I saw so many posts about graduations, weddings, pregnancies & babies, promotions, new cars & houses and smiling faces everywhere. Everyone has it going on these days! While it gives me great joy to see my friends and associates so happy and blessed, it can also be a bit depressing. Now I know we are not supposed to compare ourselves or our situations to other people’s, but social media gives us a huge platform to do just that. It’s so hard not to compare when the only things people post about are good things. We will post about our big promotion, but won’t tell you about how we struggled to find a job. We are quick to post our new bundle of joy when they’re not even an hour old yet, but we won’t tell you about the miscarriages that came before. We are quick to post pictures of that luxury car we just bought, but would park all the way on the other side of the parking lot so you wouldn’t see us getting out of that 1995 Toyota Corolla with only 3 hubcaps (That’s me…ha ha). It’s not that you are required to share your disappointments or even anything at all, but maybe there’s someone on your timeline that needs to hear about it. After all, those things are a part of our testimony too. With all of that being said, here’s mine:
In the past year, I got a new car, my own apartment, brand new furniture and a good paying job with a promotion. Woo hoo! It may not seem like much to you, but I’m so very grateful because it could be and has been worse. Before I got my new car, I had a car that only worked sometimes, and asking strangers to jump my car got old really fast. Before I got my own place, I was living with my mom. Yes, at 23 years old, I was sleeping in my stepbrother’s room with my stuff in boxes everywhere. Before I got my furniture, I was sleeping on an air mattress. Yeah, I know what they say about the girls who sleep on air mattresses, but have the Michael Kors bags and all that…lol, but I really had no other option and let me point out that I got my purse on sale at Payless. I literally cried when I got a real bed. Before I got my job in Dallas, I had no idea how I was going to make money to pay my bills. I had to borrow money to pay my rent and got behind on my car note and insurance payments. Thank God, I survived the storm and He had a greater plan. It all worked out for my good, just like He promised.
Even after all of the good things that have happened to me this past year, I’m still not in a perfect position. Despite what seems like a permanent smile on my face, I still struggle with things daily. I don’t have my dream job and still haven’t started grad school. Not to mention, I’m now 25 years old with no husband, no kids, and no concrete plans for the future, but I’m still blessed. If you’re reading this, I just want you to know that if you feel overwhelmed and you’re facing some difficult times, you’re not alone. When you look on Facebook and everyone is happy and everyone is getting blessed, but you, remember that it’s mostly a façade.
We all have tests before our testimonies, and sometimes, we have a pop quiz right after. It’s ok. It’s not just you. If you’re wondering where your blessing is, just stay faithful and keep pressing on. God has one for you too.